I am touched

Original French version available here: [link]

You can listen to me live reading it on the 44th episode of my podcast that you can find here: [link]

Poem detailed explanation:

So for this poems I wanted to show the whole world that internet is awesome, and that it can be used to get to know someone and fell in love with them as well.
Yeah I'm a bit tired of all those people who say that internet is only full of mean and awful people who want to steal your money, and abuse your kids. I might have already said this in a previous show but I really feel strongly about this, so just to make it clear. So I knew this girl from a french poems forum, and I started to notice her poems, and I sent her a note on the site and after a few exchanges we started chatting, and that's where it all started. Also to put things in perspective the time lapse of this might be from 6 months to a year.
Now for the poem in itself, so as I said we started chatting and the more you start to know someone the closer you get to him or her. In this case we even went to voice and video chat which obviously made things easier but also brought much more meaning and intensity to the words you're saying to the other.
Now when I say that everything opposes us I couldn't be more right. She was a small girl, and I was a grown up man. She was in another country, and she was handicapped when I was perfectly healthy.
So as I said I really believe for having lived it several times, that you can find your love on the internet. Love someone without ever have been in contact with her or him, or maybe it's just me because I have a wild and proliferous imagination. So if you have lived a similar experiences I would be happy to hear about it. And this concerns all the type of people cited in the poem, the fearful and malicious (like internet is evil), but mostly because I think that most grown up people don't take into considerations kids, and what they have to say. Because they have really interesting things to tell and that's what interested me the most in talking with this girl and others that you would consider as kids. Consider this point in particular I encourage you to watch this TED.com video: [link] where a 12 years old girl shows the audience how you adults can learn from children, and it's mind blowing!
Concerning the difference, I think that loving someone different than you is a good thing just because you then would have more things to talk about. If you are with someone who has all the same opinions and interests as you have, then what are you going to talk about? Much less things in my opinion. And to finish with the fact that people just don't believe in love at all, I know that could seem weird but I know a few.
To continue on the same path, I wanted to say that just because you're a kid, you just cannot love someone as we adults see it. That's really sad to hear, and I wanted to go against that saying that some kids are totally aware of what love is and can show it and feel it sincerely. So please people don't over generalize things.
In poetry is always good to over exaggerate things, and in this case, the fact that I met this girl on a poetry website, makes it a random encounter, and I pictured this random encounter as her coming out of the shadow and walking towards me. That you'll agree is much better than just saying that I met her on a website.
One of the reason I decided to contact this girl and not another is because I thought she might need my help. Let me explain: I am a very good listener and that brings me the ability to listen to people and try to give them advices on their life. And me being a good soul after reading a few of her poems, they were so sad, that I thought I would be able to do something for her, and that's why I contacted her.
Again repeating the fact that people think that on the internet only can subsist hatred and disgust, as well as lust and selfishness. Then I went into a tangent saying that obviously weapons can kill and in a more general manner do harm, and thus are regarded as powerful. And I wanted to compare them to the comforting words that you can say to someone who needs them, and show that this last one is much more powerful than any weapon will ever be.
Now when you love someone as much as me, which is A LOT! You're loving someone with every fiber of your being, and to describe such thing I brake it down to a single body part. The mind part, means I cannot stop thinking about her. The mouth part means I cannot stop talking about her. The heart part, means I cannot stop having feelings for her. And finally the body part, I cannot stop loving her just the way she is outside.
When the person you're in love with is happy then you're happy too, and that makes me just want to sing a happy song. I expect her every day, means obviously on the chat, as we were in different countries. I managed to get this girl's trust and that's what I wanted to say here, that when you get someone's trust as much as I got it, then you exaggerate and you say that you've never got someone trust as much as with this girl.
As I said this girl was handicapped, and one thing I wanted more than anything at that time is to see her healing magically, well that's what is shown on the poem because it makes it better than saying going to the hospital, that makes it sadder than what it should be, and I wanted this poem to be a happy one, and bringing magical healing to someone is much more in the happy side than someone going to a hospital.
I must say that this next part is a pretty egotistical one. Meaning me talking to this girl, falling in love with her, and accompanying her through her life, all that made her heal, that would be an incredible achievement for me, and that's what I was looking for, unfortunately it didn't happen but at least I tried. And to emphasize that even more I wanted to say that every single person could have done it, or something similar. Very early in life I decided to be good and do good, for the simple reason that there's already enough pain and suffering in the world to add mine to the lot. And this episode of my life just goes in the sense that I gave myself and that I want to achieve.
When you're happy the best way to be even more happy is to share your happiness with someone else, and that's what I wanted to share here. And by the way if you share this happiness with someone you love then it's going to make you even more happy. So go and share your happiness with the world! Because everything good or bad that you do, will someday come back to you.
In this part I really wanted to make something solemn like people who etch their hands in concrete or engrave their names on a tree. And the image I've chosen was the one of the tear falling down and as it hit the ground it will mark forever the place where I've fell in love with this girl and had so many good moments with her.
In the finish I just tried to bring back everything in a nutshell, my happiness, her happiness, and the fact that we're both of a very distinctive age group.